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Jun 13, 2012, 11:41 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2010
Location: Indy
Posts: 43,373
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This morning I got some insight to why it bothers my boss. She came in at 6am and was griping about how old she feels and she needs more sleep. She said she couldn't believe that I was always "perky" in the morning. Well we went to the backroom and she once again started in on how she was dreading her b-day and wasn't I and maybe we should just both ignore them this year. I told her that no I wasn't going to ignore it. I was going to embrace it and then settle into my new age. She blew a gasket. She said "You have these 19 and 20 year old guys hitting on you all the time!! The oldest I've ever heard someone guess your age is 26! Usually people think you're about 23 or 24. Maybe if I still looked like a kid then it wouldn't effing bother me so much! But all these guys hit on you at work and you just blow them off because you're married. No offense but you are batshit crazy and yet you still found someone that adores you! I'm old, ugly and alone." This went on for about 20 more minutes and she just bawled. (We went to school together and while we were never friends it was a tiny school and everyone knew everybody's business. So she knows ALL about me)
I gave her a hug and let her cry. Then I told her I think you're beautiful and I have faith you will find someone that adores you. And for once I was really able to articulate my thoughts  I told her "You know about my bipolar, bad childhood and all the other "issues" I've had in my life. I guess aging doesn't bother me because it shows my strength. When I turn 36 I will be able to hold my head high and say HA HA I have survived. No matter what has been thrown at me I made it! I didn't give in! I didn't give up! I showed I have courage, perseverance and fortitude! I'm proud of myself for making it this far and I can only imagine how proud I will be in 36 more years." Then I asked her if that made sense and she said yes and gave me a hug.
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