In a way it wasn't a joke. When I go live at the summer house (really small and very few things), I function much better. Modern life is not so much like that. I wish I could simplify my life here as well.... but I develop emotional bonds to items. Yay me, not.

My boss told me I should work more than I do (I'm a volunteer) and she said because she doesn't think I function any worse at home! I had no idea what to say! I was too shocked. It's much easier functioning in an environment where my every move is planned (Work follows a strict schedule) and there is the social pressure to do it correctly. Nothing like this exists at home......

I had such high hopes for myself when I was 18-19. I had talents no one else seemed to have. And I ruined it all... My illnesses and issues ruined it.

I had so many plans and ideas... I still have a lot of cool ideas..... but nothing ever comes out of them. I always feel like a worn out rag. I so wish I was healthy.