My boss knows my issues. I made everything very clear when she "hired" me. Now my coworker is starting to question why I'm on disability because there is nothing wrong with me according to her. She gets very loud about it.

I had high expectations of myself in some areas because I know, that without the obstacles, I would be something great. It saddens me that the obstacles exist...

When it comes to everyday kind of functioning I just realize I suck at it. It more scares me than makes me think I'm bad. It doesn't matter what I ask from me here, if I don't fix my place up, I might get evicted. I wouldn't like that.

I ask a lot of other people. I don't hang out with people who cannot challenge me or have any own talents. I simply cannot stand mixing with "normal" people, because they bore me to death. I know it is a horrible thing to say, but even my care workers drive me crazy. I should look up to them because they have a good grasp of life, they can drive a car, they can hold down a job.... But they have no curiosity and if you mention anything that is the slightest complex, they are lost instantly and they revert to talk about the weather. And god help you if you say cumulus cloud then... Then they might change the topic to sports...