Sorry for having disappeared. I'm fine. My mood changes every five minutes but I'm fine. Thanks for your support and your advices, it's important for me to know that I'm never alone.
Finally I've had to tell my husband what I did because he did questions I wasn't able to answer to, like "What are you going to do?", "What is supposed to make you feel better?", "What d'you like to do?", and told me that my sadness and my fears and my uncertainties were normally maybe, so at first I told him that I'm obsessed from knives and then, when he said that this is usual for me I cried: "I've cut myself, this is normal, too?!". So... he said: "Oh... no, this isn't normal... this is... madness...".
But at this time I feel better, even if I'm obsessed all the same. I read something about DBT, it sounds good, actually looks just like the thing I need now. My husband's agree, too. The question is... where can I find here an Italian T which does that kind of therapy? It's like... winning the lottery! It's hard but I think I'll begin to search. My husband said he'll talk to a friend of his which has worked for several years in psychiatric institutions. Pheraps he could help us. Actually, I don't believe that my husband will do that. He's weird. He's confused, I think. He doesn't know how to behave. Maybe he refuses this all...