Welcome to PC! I'm sorry you are struggling this way right now! I do sometimes experience things like this. I know the emotions are excessive for what I'm experiencing in the present and I know it must be something from the past, but I can't always identify what. I think the dreams might give a clue. You don't have any new meds do you? Sometimes they don't work the way they are supposed to, and that makes it hard to sort things out what's yours and what's bad pharmacology. I hope T is able to be helpful with this and also you find suggestions here that help.