Special,
Your grandmother spent her time, energy, love and compassion on you for a reason: because she knew you were worth it! Even though, and I'm so sorry, that she is gone from your world she is still watching and hoping that you rise above all this and move forward. You wouldn't want to let her down now, would you?

Most of us are products of messed up families and the best way to combat that stigma is to do a better job then our parents and siblings can do...that will really piss them off!

So wipe the crap you stepped in (family members) off the "souls" of your shoes and start your own life!

Take care,
bobbie b65