Thanks so much for your kindness, it is much appreciated. I am in such a low place today, and lately....and feeling so alone. The person I mentioned, who called me her "BFF", and who I felt that way about, was my only close friend in the world....or so I thought. Unfortunately she had trouble dealing with my depression, but refused to admit it. I would even tell her things like "It's ok if it's difficult....but you can tell me that, and we can talk about it". Or ultimately if you realize it is just too hard for you, then please tell me the truth and just walk away. Although that would be a horrible thing to happen, anything would have been better than remaining in our friendship but not being honest about this. She kept telling me that she DID care about what I went through, and that she loved me "so much", but although she admitted she did not know much about depression, or had ever experienced anything like it, she would never ask me anything about it, or start any conversation, so after a while I felt very uncomfortable talking about it. Kind of like I was "forcing" her to hear about it. And twice when we were on trips together and I had one of my early morning "crying jags", the awkwardness about it was certainly like the pink elephant in the room. Then a few weeks ago I told her that I just couldn't believe what she was telling me....that she was "comfortable" with me suffering with these demons, and being friends with me, it was the beginning of the end. Although she admitted that she'd been hurting me "from the beginning", and said she was "so sorry" and "prayed that the friendship could be repaired". But ever since then she is clearly done with me and not responding to my messages. *Oh and I guess it might be good to mention that we live across the country from each other*. Ok, well, didn't really intend to go on so long, but for anyone who might read this....thank you so much, and I wish you a better day.