Hi Lee....Thanks so very much for your message. What a horrible and hurtful thing your "ex-friends" did to you....I am so sorry you went through that. I will never understand the cruelty some people are capable of, and fight daily to understand that people who would do things like that are in fact also "troubled"....although unlike me, they'll most likely never know it. (Hopefully that made sense!) Sadly, though, because I do suffer from depression (at times severe), when I care about someone and they hurt me badly, I tend to turn it all inwards and feel like it is just further proof that I don't matter in the world. Otherwise, I think I answered some of your questions in the response I just posted. As for therapy, I have been there many times, but must say I've not been lucky with finding the right therapist, which I believe is so important. It can be especially challenging when you live in a rural area, as I do....there just aren't as many options. Plus there's that pesky little thing of no longer having health insurance to help pay for it. We'll see, would really love to talk to someone right about now, (at least for a few sessions), if I could find a good person. Thanks again for your kindness, and the hugs.....