Hi ShootingStarz, and welcome. I usually don't post here, but if you want to, why don't you post in the general section as well so that more people will see you and welcome you aboard.

I have had a number of 'traumatic deaths' occur as well, (my Mom by suicide for example), so I really do hear what you are saying.

I hope that you can find some short-term psychotherapy or ptsd counseling as opposed, (what sounds like), psychoanalysis - I don't think it's that productive for this to delve 1st into childhood either, but I'm not a Dr. so - just my opinion.

Sending you positive energy. Regards, Peanut

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