((((Purple)))), you are in a difficult situation that I can totally relate to.

Wedding planning is totally stressful in the best of circumstances. Add family history (trauma, guilt, whatever, and it becomes overwhelming.

This is your life and this is your (and of course, your finance's) day! (Congratulations! btw )

The most important thing is to focus on yourself and deal with all of your feelings and resolve things FIRST. You certainly don't want to be upset and triggered at your own wedding. You come first.

You can always send the invitations out at a later date once you get some things settled within yourself - and with the support of your fiance and the help of your T. You may feel differently a month or two from now. Or you may not. But hopefully you will feel clearer in your decision...whatever that may be

((((Rose))))