I definitely feel desperate and dateless all the time; it's terrible .

My last relationship was 4 years ago and I have been alone since then. Whenever I attempt a date or to meet a woman, I never meet her a second time, because she disappears off the Earth and will never respond to my messages. I never make it past first impressions. Yet I am told I am an incredible individual, smart, worthy, and lovable, and I am like, "Yeah right!" Here I spend most of the day talking to myself because I have nobody to talk to and I am rejected whenever around a woman, but I am awesome and lovable…

Although I feel like it's worst than death to have nobody in my life and have no intimacy, I feel like I've reached the point that I believe I am unlovable and that there is no woman that can feel like this for me.

Feels horrible to be alone so much but I feel like there is nothing that I can do. I have so many mental health issues it's hard to tell where one begins and the other ends…Asperger's Syndrome, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Borderline Disorder, argh.

I feel like love and relationships are a dead end for me and that I am too defective to be loved .