I know exactly what your going through. I knew there was something wrong early in age, but i didn't seek help till 10 years ago. Its always been a battle. I didn't find anything that worked till about 6 months ago. Now a couple months ago my Dr. Decided to take me off because off the side affects. So when i can afford to go back and go through hell trying again to find something that works, i guess that's my plan. I think that it don't matter how you got this, i don't think that your wasting your T time. I think that your heading down the right path by seeking help. All i know is that's always been a battle that i have to fight. I get mad, and think its unfair that i have to deal with this. But i have learned its part of life, there nothing i can do about changing it, so i have to fight it. I hope you can find something that works for you. Stay strong :-)