I'm disillusioned with she suppposed counseling department of the local sexual abuse survivors resource center. The intake coordinator called and took the basic information and a little bit of my history. She said that since I don't have any clear memories I probably won't qualify for the grant for free counseling of abuse survivors but that she could put me on a waiting list for an assessment and give me a call when an appointment is available. Like Dr. Drew said, I don't have to have a clear memory to get help. They are making it sound that even though it has affected me I'm not as worthy of help. At least I'll have an art therapy group to go to soon but it is really frustrating to reach out and be told that they might not be able to help with private counseling because I don't know exactly what happened. It doesn't help an already low self esteem because I'm again being told again I don't deserve to get help.