Convincing yourself you're inlove isn't helping your predicament either, you can't be inlove with a total stranger, this obsessive crush you have is just holding you back and robbing you of real experiences. Unfriend her, block her, get her out of your system, bcoz the truth is, she's not going to wake up 1 day and suddenly 'realize' rolan is the 1. I know you're hurting, and I don't mean to be harsh, but getting stuck on this girl is no good for you. Good luck!