I have a mission statement.
I will seek a closer relationship with God through prayer, Bible study and service to my fellow man.
I will seek to improve my relationships with others by listening to and spending time with my family, friends and others.
I will improve myself by continually seeking opportunities to learn from others and life situations.

If I recall correctly you have complained about a worsening of the sleeping problem with C-something (anti-depressant). Since you are new on the drug, I would certainly check and see if that is a possible side effect. I think I have read that side effects tend to lessen overtime. I have only just begun to research anti-depressants in prep for talking to T next week. I have been having trouble sleeping for seven months so I know how frustrating that can be.
I hope you find your purpose in life and manage to change what you can to make your life better.