Well, Simone, sounds like you're going to be having a baby. It may be rocky emotionally, but you're looking for support that's awesome. With my middle son, I really really did not want him, was still nursing my daughter. By the time I realized I was pregnant was too late to end the pregnancy. I was so depressed and my ex-husband was unavailable emotionally, stealing money from me to buy drugs, it was horrible. But once my baby was born, I held him in my arms I loved him with all my soul, knew I would do anything for him. I lived with my parents who were a huge support and I eventually got the strength to break up with the dad. Now my son is 16, he's the most troubled of my kids, has the strongest bipolar of the family. He recently yelled at me that I never wanted him and that I wanted an abortion, I didn't admit to it of course and I don't know how he knew. But I cried and told him things haven't been perfect but that he means the world to me and that I wouldn't want him any other way than who he is. He cried too and hugged me. This in no way means this will happen with your child. The point is that we go through really hard stuff in life, but that obstacles can be overcome. There can always be love and hope and healing. You will get through this, and don't worry if you're not yet attached, give it time and be kind to yourself. Keep posting here, we are here for you to talk to.