My bf, Andy left yesterday morning to go away with his dad. He didn't want to leave me but he left anyways. He came back this evening.

During his absence, I had the best time and felt better than I have in years! The feeling of freedom and this intense weight was lifted off my body...it was quite amazing. I really enjoyed to solitude, quiet, ability to do what I wanted without walking on eggshells because Andy might get upset or getting annoyed every 10 minutes when he'd confess his undying love to me or saying the baby phrases he constantly says over and over all day long.

So many people have asked me if I see myself with him in the future, if I am in love with him, etc. And the answer to all those questions is sadly no. I need a man, not a mama's boy who's afraid to get his hands dirty or who acts like a baby most of the time! I need a man who will act like a man and protect me from harm...not a man who needs protecting and nurtured and babied all the time.

Why do I stay? Because I've never been treated as well as he treats me for the most part.