Well i feel the same way: why do ppl tell you not to kill yourself but then they dont actually help you. It drives me crazy, though i am already. I too have tried several ways for others to help me however i was almost always brushed of or criticized. I have no advice for you, im too suffering. All i can say is that you're not tge only one- if that helps you. Hope youre okay, and trying to keep safe. Gluck with your struggles. Did you try the link brownie gave?