awwww hun you are SO strong! Do you know that? you have amazing courage. Focus on yourself and getting better before you focus on others. You deserve to be happy.

I would struggle with being in a poly relationship also, i want someone to love me and only me, i dont want him to love multiple people. I guess i would feel unworthy of him and not good enough if he felt the need to love more then one person.

Good luck with everything!! **hugs**