Someone more mature and grown up. Someone who has their life together and can take of themselves. Someone whose life trajectory is closer to my own. I want to leave the drugs and alcohol and partying behind and focus on spiritual growth and personal transformation and making the world a better place. I want to write. I wan to create a nurturing environment for children some day. I want a life filled with love and compassion.

And I don't think I necessarily want to be poly anymore. I want a partner who's committed to me, committed to personal growth, committed to creating a safe, nurturing environment for a family.

That's what I want.