I have a friend who, so far this month, I haven't talked to as much because she started a new school and has become busy. A few days ago I mentioned I wanted to talk about some things and she said she'll be here "tomorrow." Well it's the day after "tomorrow" and I asked her what she was up to and she said she was "relaxing" and isn't really on the computer often now. I don't want to bring it up and talk about it because we've had a discussion about something like this before and the solution was I need to make new friends because she "can't always be there for me" (to me it isn't as simple as making new friends anyway...). Can't? Or don't want to?

I guess I just don't understand because I have a full time job, I've gone to school and had lots of assignments and tests the next day, but I always did my best to make time for people if they ever needed me and I still do. Sure I can't answer right away sometimes but I can definitely spare 5 minutes at least by the end of the day to let someone know. If I knew my friend was feeling down (and she knows I could have depression) or just wanted to talk about something, I wouldn't say I can't always be there for you, I'd say I'll do my best to be there for you. Whenever she needed me, I tried to be there right away.

I'll accept that people get busy and I don't expect anyone to do what I do. But when I just want to talk to someone for a little while, everyone seems to be too "busy" to care. I don't want to overreact and I'm not mad or anything, I just can't help but feel a bit let down and hurt. And I have to act like it doesn't. My only hope is that this is temporary and things will go back to normal soon...that's what I was told anyway and I want to believe it. But still, I feel like no one will ever be there for me if it doesn't happen to be convenient for them. Or is that normal?