That's what I struggle with ickydog. I don't have a T, although I've just got a new CPN (community psychiatric nurse) who I'm supposed to talk to. I just struggle opening up to people, and I also don't want to worry my family, and I'm terrified of ending up in the psych hospital.

I know that I should be able to trust my own family as I should know that they only want what's best for me...but I'm used to making all my own decisions. A few years ago I had psychomotor retardation and I don't remember much from it, but my parents swear that my mum slept in my room to make sure I didn't off myself in the night. I don't remember it and am convinced they're lying but I can't figure out what they would gain from lying to me about that. So I can't trust them (and I feel bad when I say that cos I know it upsets them).



*Willow*