Hello everyone,
I am a male, in my mid-twenties, and a socially adjusted, stable minded person. However, I did something the other day which I feel guilty about. First, I’ll tell you what I did and then I’ll give you a back story.
I was at work, in a restaurant, and a very sexy women came in. I took a picture of her without her knowledge and then later used it to pleasure myself. Immediately afterwards I felt guilty. But in the moment I thought, “Why not?"
This wasn’t the first time I’ve done this.
A few years ago I was living in another state and was tremendously lonely. I had zero friends and spent many days living alone inside of my head. I had not had sex for at least 4 years. I occasionally would take pictures of women that I saw in public and found attractive to satisfy my “needs”.
This was never something I set out to do in the morning. The few times it happened, it was spontaneous and in the moment.
A few other things to keep in mind:
- I have never stalked anyone.
- I do not have fantasies about stalking anyone.
- I never printed out the pictures or anything - in fact, they were pretty much forgotten and deleted afterwards.
I’m human, it was a mistake, and though it is perhaps a bit creepy, I don’t really believe I am a creep. However, I fear being labelled a pervert.
I could use some kind and honest words.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
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