I just dont know what to do now. My daughter keeps saying she doesnt want to die. Shes scared to die. I feel like my anxiety is really being tested. Thats a huge reason for my anxiety and its the only thing she wants to talk about today. Shes only 4 she shouldnt worry about that. I try my hardest to keep that all from her until shes older, but my mom always talks about it. I keep my anxiety from her, never telling her why im upset, only telling her that im sick. But something is rubbing her the wrongway. All day ive been trying as esy and scareless as i can to explain the religious belief on it and why to not be afraid, but all day all i hear from her is "im afraid to die. I want to stay here forever" 8 hours later and im finding it much more difficult to handle it. When i was a child and had these concerns, and told my mom, she would go into a full blown panic attack. Its taking all i have not to do the same around my daughter but i know the importance of talking about it, answering questions. But 8 hours of trying to tell my daughter why she shouldnt be afraid of one of my biggest fears is really weighing on me. I just dont know what more i can do or say, or how much longer i can push my fear asside when its been shoved in my face non stop for the last 8 hours. Im getting sick of my mom thinking she can talk to my 4 year old like shes an adult, no child that young should so strongly be afraid of that
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