It hurts less for me too .... but yes, I still have questions and just had to accept that there wouldn't be answers because she chose not to give them ... and perhaps it was better to not have the answers she might have given anyway. And I do wish I had had gotten a better ending, one I might have scripted .... one where I got to hear the things that nightsky's T said .... but it is what it is. I have accepted it, moved forward, and find that I remember the good much much more than the hurt. She gave me lots of seeds of wisdom, things I understand better now, not just in theory but in practice.
She was a good T ... she made mistakes, but she is human. She did the best she could. I think it was probably painful for her too to realize she did end up causing hurt ....
I'm glad it hurts less for you and that there has been healing.