being here is overwhelming. I can't read anymore, or reply to everyone I wanted to.

I just want to say that I hope you guys realize how brave you are to talk about these things here with one another. I didn't know it until I had to leave for a while, but now that I'm here again I am just bowled over by the emotion. It's probably because I'm not really in therapy at the moment (I do see my not-so-new-T weekly, but what we do can't be called therapy even by the loosest of definitions.)

I guess I didn't realize how much time I spend avoiding these emotions, how much time I spend reading things that are guaranteed to NOT make me think about things like love and hurt and respect and endings and goodbyes. You guys are brave. I read 3 posts, replied once, and I can't take any more.

Keep taking care of each other.