Post on couch....

Trigger for bad thought possibility .......regarding si



Hey y'all
Sorry to interupt....

From couch...

Trigger SI










I am having suicidal thoughts and havent attempted since 20. Wife and I are fighting med change drinking fake weed... Spiral.

Anyone just talk to me

many responses thank you all ...later


Posted on couch

Ok question...I have two competing trains of thought,that lead to action...one is good and one is bad... Been this way since I can remember. Honor roll class president sports player with job, ****** home life 7 syblings 6 younger who needed to be looked after... On the weekends 2 town over drunken *****.... It's not DID , I don't think, I don't loss time ,I cant explain why...one has control and the other try's to reason ... Am I crazy?



So in true fashion - as I am alone and self medicating, frustrated on unavailability of lethal doses of anything noted on the Internet , you would ink that is important ) I digress, wife at friends house, our only friends, in town. Hey T I'm fixin to email you buddy...

Lola emails....
This idea of 2 me's competing for one me... Am I crazy , what is that.. Not DID so what is it?

Seriously I need to know
Lola

T responds -

It's called ambivalence.* Everyone has a part of them that wants to do one thing and another part that wants to do another.* It's the difference between the id, ego, and superego.* The girl two towns over is your id.* Partner, in the past and maybe at times now is acting as your superego.* But your superego is the part of yourself that is your morals, values, and hopefully the future you.* The ego balances these two.* Your OCD is your neurosis between balancing these.

I am too ****ed up for that , Please explain....