It was last November that texting began - innocuous enough. Only because her voicemail box was full, she was on vacation and I needed to let her know something about our appointment.

Then I would text her small stuff - again timing or simple short info stuff.

Then I began texting my feelings to her after session.

I would apologize but she would tell me it was o.k.

Then I began texting more often. Not expecting nor even wanting a reply. It was a way to release and let out some emotions.

I would apologize again. But she would not only tell me it was o.k but encouraged me to text as often as I wanted.

Before the texting habit began in November, I would leave at least one message on voicemail per week, sometimes more. Again, she told me I could call as often as I wanted. We had agreed that she would not pick up phone and would not return calls unless I requested.

Texting is easier for me. And T admitted it's easier and simpler for her.

But what has happened it that texting is exposing me more to her. See, when I feel emotional I cannot resist sending her a short text. If I waited until session I might forget all about the emotion or decide I don't want to address it.

The texts show T what's been going on with me emotionally and sometimes I really regret her knowing by the time session rolls around.

If only texting were not available. Next session she will know about some emotions that have passed already.

She gets the 'hot' version of an experience cuz I text while revved up. If I replay my feelings days later, she would probably get the 'cold' version.

So, I'm unveiled. And there are sometimes I would just wish to keep a blanket over my head.