Thanks for the reply Bean... Um... I think mainly the trigger is just the intense anxiety I get from my OCD.... and fighting with my parents. The OCD makes feel a need to do anything to distract myself and I think I hurt myself to do this...... because it takes my mind of the pain inside and gives me a different kind of pain to focus on.. does that make sense? And then when I get in fights with my family, I just get so mad and upset that I make things worse.... so basically its a distraction... and I'm sort of punishing myself because I hate the part of me which is OCD... which is all of me. I hate that I can't resist it. It makes me feel so weak