I have always had a fear of being "locked up" and edited myself in therapy accrdingly. But, over the years, as I have learned to trust some people, including my t, I still have the fear, but can push myself past it enough to communicate more completely with my t.

"Don't let them get me!!!" is a catch phrase between me and my friends. Being in an institutional setting would destroy what little is left of my limbic system. I need a degree of silence that is beyond impossile in that setting.... I wouldn't be able to sleep. Heck, I wouldn't be able to relax. It would drive me straight to hell. . . I can't spend much time looking at this or I can give myself a panic attack. You are not alone.