I am 29 yrs old female. Single. I have been single all my life. I have never had a boyfriend. No one has ever loved me.(My parents love me,ofcource, but thats not what i meant) And this has been a big issue for me. I am really afraid that i will die alone and wont be able to find that someone for me. I see all the people around me are happy and moving forward in life, but i am stuck in the same place for so many yrs. i am in a job which i dont like and i want to do something which i would enjoy. But the problem is i dont know what i like to do. Both my personal life and career is going downhill. I often think about death but im sure i will not commit suicide coz i dont have the guts to do it. I just cant bear it when i see people in a relationship. I dont want be the old mean woman..
No guy has ever noticed me or shown any kind of interest in me. But guys become friends with me easily. and i know they all like me as a friend. When i see many girls who are so mean and girls who cheat on their boyfriends are in a relationship, i become so depressed, i certainly dont deserve to be neglected like this. I am 29 and i dont have any hope anymore. I dont know how i am gonna live through this life.
I have lost interest in things i once love, like reading, treking. these days i dont want to do anything.
i have tried to talk to some of my friends about my depression, but they dont understand how i feel and they dont even want to listen to me. now i dont feel like discussing it with anyone.
i just dont know what to do