anyway...the surprise party happened...i didn't go...my ma mailed me a mothers day card two days after mothers day...she left me a vm asking what happened...i told her everything...and it's been a month now since i've seen her or spoken to her.

how many times and how many ways do i have to make my ma and brothers understand that i need their support? i am emotionally and mentally exhausted.

my husband has been supporting me...he said to me the other day...do you know what insanity means? you keep doing the same thing over and over again hoping to get a different result.