Hi Everyone,

Sorry, this will be long.

I am new to this web site, but I am not new to depression. I was diagnosed with clinical depression back in 1994. I was on Prozac until after 6 years it stopped working, so they put me on Wellbutrin, now they changed it Wellbutrin XL.

I still have many issues and some days seem like there is no hope. Believe me when I say that I could not end it. There are too many people that would be crushed. Which is always an ongoing debate in my head. But, the reason I am here today is because I have somewhat of a problem, and I am not sure if this falls under my depression or marriage counseling so I would love to hear from you and get your opinion.

I have been married for 14 years. I LOVE my husband and deep down I know he loves me, He has always had a job where he goes out of town for 2 or 3 weeks at a time, which I could handle. But, for the past 2 years he has been on and off the road running lights for a couple of different bands. (He does call me everyday, whether it is just to say I love you or how the day is going.) I get very lonely and even more depressed as the months go by. I rarely tell him how I feel. In thinking that if I complain too much he wouldn't want to call me or even come home, so I keep a lot of it to myself. He is about to go on the road again and be gone for 6 months. Mind you I can fly out to see him basically whenever I want. He often askes me If I am ok or if I am mad that he is leaving. and again most of the time I tell him that I would rather not talk about, mostly because all I would do is cry. Just cry. I don't want him to quite his job because he is so happy. He truly loves doing what he does. And it makes me smile to see him so happy. But, it just nags at me all the time, thinking that he is neglected me. When he is home we do things and are together, physically and what not. We have many things in common and we have many things that we disagree on. which make for good conversation.

I am sorry for the long post. and if any one can give me some kind of opinion on what to do. Thereapy for myself, marriage counseling or just a support group.

HELP!!
Thank you for any advice.