Lexi, I know that feeling of freedom, even if it's for a couple of hours or a couple of days. That's a red flag and just about as big as they get, Hon! This person isn't for you!
Candy hit the nail right on the head. It's time for you to start making your "get away."

Set yourself free! It's within your power!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.