Thank you so much, I have written a couple of times, it only results in a phone call from either my mum or my brother telling me they do not want to hear about it. As though not hearing about it makes it never have happened. they just can't accept it and in turn then can't accept me. I have always been the outsider even when living at mums as a kid. I was always treated differently, my older brother and younger sis were allowed to visit their friends to play, i never was, they got bikes, remote colour TVs and computers, i got an etch a sketch that was broken on opening, they had big birthday parties with loads of friends and family around, i was lucky to get a card and slice of plain cake with a candle on it and i had to share it!