I don't trust you on this one, lovely - sorry! I feel similarly much of the time, I won't deny it, but too often we're way too hard on ourselves!!! It's not always easy to get perspective on it though - not when we're looking at the situation through our own tinted glasses (so-to-speak) - we're very biased! Have you spoken to T about it?

I am sorry you're feeling so rotten about it right now though! I really don't have much to add to the other wonderful responses, but I'm always here for you if you want to chat or vent about it! I care.. I care a lot!