Thanks everyone. I didn't realize so many of us had boundaries on email set from the outset. I guess I was spoiled - getting a little extra therapy for free every week.

I'm doing a little better today - anger has dissipated a little bit. I'm starting to be able to see the rationale behind his actions, and I agree. But wow, what has come spilling out on paper!! I've accused him of putting himself in a position of power, dangling hurting clients on a chain, watching them suffer. I've told him I hate him, despise him, F this, F that, cancel all my sessions until after August, in fact I may not come back at all....The venom is just pouring out.

I almost had a heart attack - I hit a random button by accident and someting popped up saying "Email has been sent". I literally freaked!! When I calmed down enough to read the message again, I realize it had been "sent" to myself. Holy Mother of All the Saints!! I hate to think of what would have happend if he had actually gotten that three page email

Anyway, thanks again for the responses, and especially for the hugs - I need them SO MUCH!! My heart is really hurting right now.