I agree with Bashful Bear I think you are totally wrong on this. It makes no sense at all honey. I know it feels like it does to you but is there anyway you can see how you have a skewed perspective on this and trust us and those around you who are telling you otherwise? You are soooo not worthless. I've seen your posts on these boards and you are so kind and compassionate with others so I know you have it in you. Can you try to extend a little of that kindness and compassion to yourself?