This really makes sense to me why some therapists are the way they are. Reading that, the heal thyself while I, the T is collecting money, actually makes sense! It never made sense to me before.

And why it didn't, was because I didn't have the answers. Whenever I have been helped, it had been because I had learned something new.

I never had an idea what to say in an unstructured environment. I always wanted to be guided by questions. And I saw those as a mean for them to get to know me, nothing else. I was lost, I sort of didn't know I was going for something within.

Also once a therapist said my second last session, that it was useless for me to go to therapy, since I already knew everything about my childhood (I have a good memory and was always good at analyzing). She said I knew everything at once that people learn after years in therapy. Whatever that means. Didn't heal me one bit.