Doing a little better today. Rage and anger at T about setting boundary on emails has finally burned down a little; I feel like I can breathe again. Rational mind is hovering nearby and I'm trying to hold on to it to keep this in perspective. Writing all those emails that will never get sent - pouring out the anger, bile, sarcasm, expletives - helped turn down the heat on the anger scale. So now I just have to work on some feelings of resentment, lose of an important means of contact and residual smart-a*s*s feelings of tit-for-tat as in "Well, guess what, you took away email, maybe I won't come back anymore either, how do you like that, huh???" Nyah, nyah... Yeah, I know, childish. That's the mood I'm in.....just sitting here at computer hoping eventually rational self will return