I can feel the realness...certain sounds and whatnot are what trigger a lot of the memories...its just hard to decide sometimes if what happened was really "that bad" I hear such other horrible stories and mine sounds lame, no that big of a deal. You know, its like I'm not Sybil, it could have been worse so why does any one care....Its hard to convince myself that my bad times were bad enough to justify my issues (depression, SI, fear of intimacy)