Had t yesterday and a sad little came out while I was still aware. I was able to experience her feelings of sadness and being scared to tell anything and was able to feel my mouth pull down into a frown and was able to hear her whisper to the T. Such a very strange feeling--still can't describe it to my husband. Afterwards, I was somewhat weirded out by this and was wishing that I didn't have all these parts or that I could just go back to not knowing about it all.

Today I realized that if I didn't have all my parts, I would be so much less than who I am right now. I may not like all of the memories that I have, but I do not want to lose all the good memories from after life got better or all the information I have stored that adds up to make me who I am today. I would be such a shell of a person without it. Like someone with long-term amnesia I suppose.

I know that there will be times in the future when I am not coping too well--hopefully I'll remember to come back here and look back at this message and see that I do need and want all my parts.

I'm thankful that I've found this forum with all of you here to share this journey. Safe hugs to everyone who wants one--I'm in a good space and have love to share right now.



Elizabeth