I know most of this will sound like easy answers but are actually very hard to implement... but just some things to think about...

The fact that he knows some of this specifically is a very good sign. It's not like you would be hitting him on the head with something out of the blue. He already knows and accepts that you have a problem. I think it is possible that you could ease him in on the severity of it, and he really may already know even if you haven't told him specifics.

I assume he has reacted well to the information that he does have? You said he is still supportive. Of course nothing is guaranteed but it is a good bet he will be supportive all the way through this I think.

As for law school, this may be a brutal concept, but really if he is involved it is up to him to make sure you don't take too much of his time or energy. You are the one that is ill and should not have to be also "protecting" other people from this, especially ones who want to be supportive. As long as you are not being manipulative or dumping guilt on him then there is no reason he can't use his judgement and say "I really have to study for a test tomorrow and I'll call you when it is over" and still be supportive. How much he wishes to be involved is his decision, and by keeping it a secret from him you are not allowing him to make that decision which is rightfully his. And that is the kind of thing that may cause problems in the long haul.

I think really that your fear and inability to accept this yourself is the thing you should work on most. I think it is a tremendously positive thing that you realize this. And it is something very very normal for everyone going through this type of thing for exactly the reasons you describe. I assume you are talking about this with your therapist? The best thing you can do for yourself and for your boyfriend is really work on taking care of yourself and getting better. It sounds like you are on the road to that, I wish you luck, and please keep us posted.

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