youre right fishsandwhich. While my t has some very helpful information in some aspects, some things just do not sit well with me, this being a main one. I am as open and honest as i can be, in an attempt to genuinely get better now, but knowing his view on psychotic disorders, often i hesitate before being open about all of my problems, i have to force myself to answer his questions in that aspect, because i know his feelings toward psychotic disorders and am fearful that if they eventually learn that its possibly schizophrenia as well, that i will be brushed off and practically force fed meds that make me so much worse off. I genuinely want to get better, i can not live this way and keep what little sanity i have left, so i am honest in my appointments, even when referring to my schizo symptoms, but its hard and rather frightening thinking about the change in my help if they include schizophfenia to my diagnosis.

Ive often been told that its nearly impossible to have both, and the diagnosis often goes back and forth scizo to did to schizo. Im rather tired of the names, as with each name change (in the diagnosis) i get treated much differently. I know meds make things worse for me, yet t continues to say if i were to be schizophrenic that i would have to be on meds. Ive been off steady psychotic meds for 6 years and am 1000 times better than i was on meds, its like if i do get diagnosed by them with schizophrenia, they will be determined to put me on meds that drive me bonkers, and i really will be in trouble.

I took the survey but didnt leave any info besides my email, idk whose running the survey or what they do with your address, but it really sounds like a good cause. The mental health system is extremely flawed. Some things really need to be brought to the surface