I struggle with this too, BAF. I havent been in a meaningful loving/sexual relationship in a looooong time. I dont know how to do it anymore. Everyone else seems to move thru life effortlessly (I know that is not true but...) while I stand on the sidelines. Did anyone double-dutch jump rope as a kid? Remember standing, bobbing up and down, watching the rope go round and round waiting for the right moment to jump in? Thats what I feel like. Only the right moment never comes.

Part of my problem was sticking with men too long. I am confused by all that and last session T made me feel kinda awkward about it. Ugh...