thank you for the refrences, they have really helped. Im a bit of a coward when it comes to speaking up but perhaps that too will be a part of my recovery and is necessary to getting better. I will perhaps write a letter to him and give it to him wednesday expressing my concerns in this area. The way he makes it sound is that i can only be helped with meds if i am schizophrenic. But that is opposite for me, but i can not be helped by him if i worry that he will throw me out if i am schizophrenic. Therapy is my biggest tool in my desire to get better but no its not effective if i can not feel mentally safe in therapy.