I feel like ending my pain too. I am still here because of others who i don't want to put through the pain of losing someone to suicide. I hope you think of those that will have to deal with your death. I'm sorry to make you feel like you have to think of others and to hell with your pain. I know your pain and am going through it too. I am sorry your going through this and hope things get better. Keep posting here and you can always call suicide hotline or samaritans. Also seeing a therapist helps. Hope things get better soon.