Aw, Firebird, I don't have much to say except to send you lots of hugs and best wishes, whatever that means to you.

And . . . I don't know you well, and I hope I'm not crossing over any lines or anything, but I wish you wouldn't beat yourself up about your IQ and how "low" you are. Maybe it's true; I don't know. But you know, the first thing I thought when reading your post is how perfect your English is. Everything is in its proper place, all the right punctuation, everything . . . I'm a sub-editor -- I think you call that 'copy-editor' over there? -- and let me tell you, there are people with PhDs and 180 IQs who cannot write as well as you do. Maybe it is even something that in time you can make into a money-earning thing.