Oh yes, I can understand not wanting to put the energy into a new T. I would not want that either. And I can understand your being uncomfortable with psychiatrists too, they can get you on all kinds of medications. I didn't have very good experiences with them myself. I am glad I didn't take all the medications that were suggested to me, now I see adds where people are sueing because of bad side effects. I get so I don't know who to trust so you are not alone in that sentiment.

Oh, I can see why you would hesitate in not wanting to be thought of a crazy, yes I held back in adding my psychological issues in my lawsuit because I felt that the battle would be about "my mental health and all of my private life".

Well, I think your calling your old T is a start because you really should get a therapist that can help you through all of this, and can help you manage the PTSD, you really do need that. You have a lot on your shoulders and you need to have someone you can share with that you can trust that can help you keep yourself on steady ground psychologically.

Please know that we are always here to support you and just listen. I picture you as a very strong woman who definitely doesn't deserve to have such a toxic person in her life. A support group may have some ideas and avenues of protection that you are not aware of right now. It is always so much help to be around others that understand you and are there to really listen so see if you can try to look into that this time ok?

I will definitely keep you in my prayers. Please keep us updated.

(((Big supportive hugs for you Cotton))))
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