Thank you Open,
I called my old T and we are having lunch tommorow. It was good to speak to him. He's going to help me find a new T and assist me in finding and pursuing new avenues.
I'm tired and am slowing down on my hours..Sleep deprevation has taken its toll. I'm weak and my body hurts. Stress, acid reflux, and ulcers is no way to live. Pulling out my own stitches because there is no time to go back to the hospital makes it very clear I am pushing myself to hard. The fact that accident even happened says allot in itself. I've cut back on my hours. 2 hours here and there to add up to 50 a week is not cutting it. 2 hours before the baby wakes up, an hour
at nap time, evening stretches after he sleeps is and has taken its toll on me physically. I need to take better care of myself. Eat and find a way to sleep.
Yes, those who don't have PTSD don't get it. Thoese not in my situation don't get it. Yes, I need to care for me and care for my son. I'm no used to him sick and tired.
Yes Open...ride the wave...that is exactly what I must do. I can't fight it any longer.
Thank you. Tonight I will sleep. No more nightmares and flashbacks, by body is simply too tired to fight any longer.
Ride the wave-my new motto.
Thank you.